had a bad weekend this week. keep thinking of the mistake i made at work. happened on friday. its a small deal. but its a deal that im working on alone. i cant believe that i actually just mistook what the landlord is saying and assume. greatest mistake always. assuming. i wouldnt say it got me into trouble. but the negotiation just didnt turn out smooth. my prospect ended up having to pay more money and more hassle for them. i was thinking to myself. whats wrong with me. what didnt i check everything and just freaking ask anything that im not sure of? i hate this habit of mine. but well, i just take it for granted always when the issue is over. somehow this incident hit me alot. its just some kind of wake up call for me always. i hate wanting to run away from my issues and hoping everything will be solved at the end of the day. i always hope that. i must learn how to solve the issue instead of running. but easier said than done. i had the thought of just quitting and not continuing my marketing job. but i questioned myself. why dun take up the challenge and see i can do better in the future? it is just the beginning stage of my career. yes. i do agree im slow at work. inefficient in fact. everyone in the program is closing deals. at least 2. how abt me? one. and i tagged along with my manager and i didnt contribute much to it too. sighs. bad combi for the weekend. work issues + pms. it really can kill.

so weird. cometbird is not supported by Blogger? haha. well, i guess not much people use blogger anyway. when i was sharing with jy and cl that i still blog once in a while, they were like huh?! you still got blog ah? haha. yes i do blog once in a while. when i feel like it of cos. just ended KF DND 2012. well. though i didnt put in much effort in it. more of following people blindly. it is still happy to see people smiling and laughing away. immersed in the joy and laughter for the night. feels good. it would be quite sad if no one is happy about some event which the committee has placed in much effort into it right? haha. saved myself a 100 bucks from the make up and hairdo. DIY. but of cos not as nice as others lah. well, im still glad that i saved 100 bucks. and also i won myself a camera! the only one item i wanted to win in the lucky draw. muahahaha! lucky me yeah? hehe. just nice the camera my brother invested in is spoilt. time to welcome a new camera! :D elder brother has been in aussie for a few months. realised that i chat with him more than when he is in singapore. irony eh? well, its just my family practice. not exchanging much conversation when we are face-to-face. well, still love them much! (:

somehow i still manage to visit my blog once a month. amazing. maybe this shows im being emo once a month? ha.

a sentence made by my colleague somehow lingers in my mind for quite sometime.

"i think you are not suitable for marketing job"

well, i think i know that deep down in myself. but somehow, i still went ahead and gave marketing a try. i have met with obstacles. not really face to face yet. often i hide behind others and try to avoid everything that comes into the way. thats me. always avoiding. hate this. sometimes i tell myself to face it. sometimes i hide and cry. sometimes im just tired and let it come and hit me down.

gosh. what a pessimistic person.

gosh. i wanted to sleep since 12am. but i got so addicted to running man that i cant wait to download all of them! hahaha. i watched quite a few episodes this afternoon cos boy was studying and having his IPT. apparently it is some kind of new system where you can pass your IPPT easier. hmmm. we shall see.

running man is really entertaining. and really addictive. okays. at least for me. haha. you nv expect the artists to be so rough and desperate and silly in the show. guess thats why it is so entertaining.

knew that boss is leaving in may.

was just going through the list of the blog links i have on the left bottom of the page. realised that almost all links are inactive already. habits do change over time yeah? work keeps us busy. other activities keep us busy in a way or another. oh well. everything changes over time.

Is it possible not to compare and compete within the same department? After the past 2 days, I feel so crappy. I seemed so slacked. Keep finding excuses and slack while others are taking initiatives and working work. Cold calling actively. Following with potential cases. Trying to establish relationships even though its not a potential deal. What I'm doing? Cold calling checked. Not that much. Following up. Hmmm. Not that actively. Let alone trying to establish relationships.

Just reported the number of cases that I'm working on. The team has a couple. I do have a couple. And my couple is like two while others is like 5 and above? I may sound as though stressing myself out. But I guess I dunno how else to feel. Esp when there is someone who is in the same team,same level of experience. I doubt no one can confidently tell me that he or she wouldn't compare the 2 of us. Sighs. I just gonna buck up I guess. I'm not as knowledgable. I'm not as sociable. I'm not as decisive. Its really like zzzzz. Just needed to rant I guess.

My first post for the year! Happy new year! :)

Was thinking of setting new year resolutions for myself. But come to think abt it, will I even stick to it? Or maybe I really need to jot down something and complete it? Well, one thing for sure, this year is gg to be a steep learning slope. What is going to learnt at work wasn't taught in school. Human communications. Testing ur knowledge. Learning to work under stress. A lot of other skills required. Its really getting out of comfort zone!

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